realizations

being denied the promotion at work was one of the hardest trials I've had in my life

I admit I've lived a blessed relatively uneventful 'easy' life

you want something so badly but you just can't have it and it consumes you, completely consumes you.

you feel like you are in the middle of a bad dream and you can't wait to wake up.

but you never wake you, you keep moving day-to-day almost in a blur.

all my thoughts were centered on not getting the job

lucky for me I have a great husband who had the patience to help me pick up the pieces

he distracted me

he allowed me to cry, complain, and ramble(usually saying the same things)

he called ahead to family and told them the news

asking them to not mention it

his love and support spoke volumes even though he didn't have to say a word

nothing he could say would make me feel anything but

he just held me tight and loved me more and more

a friend shared with me the importance of keeping yourself busy when you are sad, or trying to endure a trial.

The more you sit around 'thinking' or feeling sorry the worse it gets

get busy

do something for someone else

get active.

and I've found that to be true throughout my life, but especially recently.

sitting in my little basement

no matter how clean it is

won't make my problems go away or make me feel any better.

as I read through the comments that you shared on my 'lemon' post I will admit I was surprised by some that shared.....I didn't know that many of you read my blog I was touched that you took the time to share your thoughts and love I realized...even though I don't have a friend besides my husband that I talk to every day or week for that matter there are alot of people around me who care.and it goes both ways.I care about you guys too. I would want to help my neighbor, church member or friend if they ever needed anything.but what keeps us from getting that help?

I think it's because we never stop and ask.

I can't ever think of a time that I called a friend or a friend called me and said,

'hey i'm having a hard week would you mind bringing Sam and I dinner?!'

I want to appear strong

I want people to think I've got it all put together

I don't want to be that person who always needs help

Well we certainly shouldn't be running around feeling sorry for ourselves

and making everything a big deal for attention

but...

we shouldn't be walking around all tough either.

letting other help us helps them... does that make sense??

it totally does in my brain but I'm not really sure why it works so well.

My last comment before I get off of my soap box

some of the most joyful happiest times of my life has been when I have thought of others(not just my husband) but those around me more than myself.

I truly gave myself, talents, time, energy to those around me.

while doing that I was happy and everything else fell into place.

This week I am going to seek opportunities to help those around me.

I'm not planning on volunteering or going out of my to find those in need

but I will be listening closer when a friend shares a concern

I will send a text or a phone call when I think of someone, just to check and see how they are doing

my goal is each day to do at least one thing for someone else, besides Sam.

I'm not doing these things for self-recognition but to give back to everyone who gave to me.

Join in, and focus your week on others too.

I know these photos are completely random, but I was reading a blog about taking your own self-portraits and while I've been home sick this week I decided to give it a try.

Sam eventually joined in too

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