life hasn't been so glamorous at our house this week. I came down with the flu on Monday morning. It hit me quickly and with great force. For the first time since Mack was born I felt like I couldn't take care of him on my own. I have realized many times how much he relies on me for but this was the first time that I didn't know if I could give him all that he needed. I have been super fortunate in my life and have not been really sick too much. But the few times that I have always cause me to find a deeper sense of gratitude for my day to day monotonous activities. I would love to be able to get out of this bed and sweep the floor, make dinner, change a diaper or fold some laundry. It is truly humbling to realize how each breath is a gift and something to be grateful for.
As my body feels like it breaking and withering trying to fight this bug my heart is bursting as I listen my little one in the other room. My house if filled with the most beautiful sounds of my sweet Sam caring and playing with his son. I usually am right next to them enjoying the fun but lately I just get to listen and it's music to my ears. My heart has been bursting alot lately. Sometimes I wonder how it still works because multiple times throughout a day I feel it burst a little more as I watch and care for Mack. He is constantly causing me joy through his sounds, his actions, the things he is learning, facials, body language, fear of the vacuum, testing the boundaries, etc. etc. Even though I have sacrificed so much becoming a mother and most of the things I will never get to fully enjoy again I feel like I have experienced more joy in the last 8 months than I ever have. It's truly a testament that you love those that you serve. Mack and Sam are my everything, I just hope my heart can handle all the joy the constantly bring me.
Thursday, January 10
I've been trying to decide what to do with this blog, I know that this blog is a good link to our current blog, should I update on here when I've posted something new on the new blog? Should I make this one private? Who reads? who cares? Share an opinion if you have one.
... I updated the new blog today too.
Tuesday, January 8
Thursday, November 8
halloween happened our house despite the delay to post about it
i loved having a baby for halloween.
even though it's a little tricky squishing everything into one day it was worth it
we visited both grandparents, my grandma, the office and a cousins school parade
here's the holiday through pictures
Friday, October 19
Wednesday, October 17
it's a family tradition to head to the cabin in woodland for conference weekend
usually we are running up in between sessions on Saturday and then hurrying down on Sunday
this year was so nice, we went up Friday afternoon and stayed until after dinner Sunday
no rushing involved!
.... I love not working full time.
this was Mack's first time at the cabin
it was beautiful up there
even though it was a bit chilly
it was such a nice weekend away, thanks for having us
playing go fish with the cousins.... we missed abby, sarah, eliza, annie, calvin and peter!
swinging with grandpa
tummy time by the fire
checking out the fire
snuggling with amy
just being cute
chilling on my couch outside