becoming my boys momma

i was told time and time again while i was pregnant how intuitive becoming a mom is

i didn't understand it

in my mind caring for my child and taking care of a baby seemed so foreign and scary

i read lots of books hoping to prepare me for what i was about to take on

even though I didn't read something that has magically worked or solved a problem 

i'm happy i read them 

knowledge is power right? 

but i can't believe what a natural transition it was becoming a mother 

i held my baby for the first time and looked into his eyes and fell in love 

after that love came, whose foundation started during pregnancy, the rest was easy 

it's been so easy and so hard all at the same time 

i love every minute, i love the challenges

i love that i can hear Mack move or make a noise on top of any other noise in the room

i love that i can tell when he is about to cry or if he wants something else 

i love that i know what he wants by listening to his cries or watching his body(still mastering)

i love that when he hears me he looks for me 

and when he sees me he smiles

i love thinking i am his favorite person in the world right now

i love being a momma 

i understand now how becoming a mother is intuitive

and i even better understand how being a mother brings the most joy 

each phase and week just gets better

they each come with a unique challenge but the reward gets greater and greater 

i love feeling like i am fulfilling my duty. 

that's all for now. 

i'm thinking of all my friends that are pregnant right now so excited for the days and weeks ahead

you are at such a wonderful part of pregnancy and life, try to enjoy it!!