motherhood

you always hear that your love and appreciation for your mom increases a hundred fold after having your own child.  I have always had a good relationship with my mother.  We hardly ever fought or disagreed.  I felt like I appreciated her and understood all that she does for me.  After having my own child I better understand what people mean when they say that.  I thought they were talking about the physical sacrifices, waking up in the middle of the night, stopping what they are doing to do something for you, cooking, cleaning, loving, forgiving etc. But what I didn't realize was that having a child takes so much more away.  I feel like I never stop thinking about my little man.  His well being is always on my mind and my hopes and dreams for him continue to grow each day.  Once he is sleeping when I should get up and clean up the house or make dinner I can stand to put him down. I just snuggle with him all day long.  My identity has completely changed and I love it.  It hasn't been all bliss and movie like but between the good and the bad it's been completely worth it.  

I wanted to mention how wonderful our mothers are.
A few weeks before we had Mack we woke up to a mother in our garden planting plants.. since we moved in in the winter the yard needs a lot of attention and being 38 weeks pregnant it wasn't first on my list.  My sweet mother in law said I would want some color in the yard once the baby came, something lovely to look at.  She was right! thank you!

While I was recovering in the hospital my mother spent her afternoon planting the vegetable garden that I always talked about planting but never got to.  She planted me a few varieties of tomatoes and peppers, zucchini, melon, and a cucumber.  Not only am I excited about the produce in a few months but it gets me out of the house every day to water and check on them.  I get so excited when I see little things popping up.

I love being a mother and am so grateful for the mothers who taught me by example.